16, eh? This is the first time that a birthday has actually changed me or made me feel older. In the 4 days since my birthday, I have got my L’s. It was at this moment that I noticed how fast my childhood was slipping away from me. I have always been more sensitive to most about these kind of things but this suprised me. I mean, driving a car is not something a child does. It is an adult activity; something kids dream about for their first 16 years.
Most teenagers don’t realise how lucky we have it. We don’t pay rent, we have a reliable routine, we are forced to see our friends everyday; our crushes everyday (unless you’re like me and picks someone who goes and moves 3 hours away from you), we have no real responsibilities. Sure, getting out of school and moving on to more exciting projects is fun and enjoyable, but is it all really that bad?
Now, I am not saying that I love school and want to stay there (as a student), or that I want to live with my parents forever. I am just saying that being a teenager is nice. To be young and healthy, and to afford to be a little careless is something that I wish I could experience forever. I hope that when I am an adult that I am able to connect with myself like I do at 16. I want to be able to remember my childhood and to recreate those feelings.
To be completely honest, I am scared about the next stage of my life. Even though I am what I want to do, executing it is the part that scares me. Everything is going to change. My friends are all planning to attend different universities, I will move out of home, I will get a job and have to solely depend on myself. The next 18 months are going to fly by so quickly that I’m not sure if I am going to be able to keep up.
Cya later Skittle Skater 💫
(I started rambling, sorry)
School has finished and I am patiently waiting for my friend to finish her audition for the upcoming school production so we can walk home. I am sort of dreading going home because I have an English essay to finish for tomorrow. I will let you in on a secret… I have barely started. I know, I know. ‘Why are you doing this instead?’, ‘Get to work, lazy butt!’ I swear I have tried to work on it but it is just so boring. I have this amazing ability to find a way around everything. It takes a certain skill set but it is easy to achieve with practice.
Procrastination has become easier over the years with the creation of the internet, making special mention to YouTube and Spotify. As I am writing this, I have Lotto by EXO playing in my ears, and I am trying to resist the urge to dance. As I can’t dance and am still at school with the teachers walking around me, it would be quite embarrassing. And on comes MAMA the EXO-K version. Love this song… ANYWAY, as I was saying it is easier to become distracted nowadays.
So it is now a few hours later and while I have made progress on my English essay, I still can’t be bothered to do it. I mean, it apparently has to be 1000 words and I am going to struggle to get to 700. Has anyone read The Boat by Nam Le? I preferred Tomorrow When the War Began by John Marsden from last year. Oh well, it will be over soon. My essay on the other hand…. even Ailee can’t encourage me today. Tomorrow morning will be quite stressful, I reckon. I don’t recommend to anyone to leave an essay to the last minute, even if it is dead boring and you would rather light yourself on fire than think about it. It is a bad habit that I wish to change, but English just isn’t helping.
I have put up the link to a lovely little video that will help in your procrastination process.
Cya later Skittle Skater 💫
MAMA by EXO-K