Good morning, good afternoon, good night.
I find time zones fascinating and annoying at the same time. One of my best friends lives in the USA and I am in Australia, so when I am available to talk, he is heading to bed. It is quite frustrating.
I actually have no idea where this post is headed. I had my first of 6 Year 11 ATAR exams today and my brain is fried. It was English so I literally just had to write for 3 hours straight. I think (well, my accurately, hope) that I did okay. We will find out in a couple of weeks. I have Don’t Wanna Cry by SEVENTEEN on in the background so I am not really thinking about my exam that I have tomorrow.
For me the first exam is always the worst. I panic and freak out because I don’t really know what to expect. I think I will be a bit more composed tomorrow morning than I was today. The good think about these exams is that I get a lot of time off school. I had all of yesterday, this afternoon, the rest of the day after the morning exam, and two days next week. So really, I will only have one proper day of school in two weeks. It is reasonable compensation for having to sit through 6 3-hour long exams.
On to other news, BTS’s MV for “Not Today” has surpassed 100 Million views! Congrats! Next job is “Spring Day”. As I enjoy both songs, this is welcome news to my ears. And has anyone listened/watched ASTRO’s new song “Baby”? I love it! I am also anticipating Pentagon’s comeback in a few days. So much new music to listen to.
So, I think I am going to stop now while I can. This post had no real theme. I guess that is what happens when you just click ‘write’.
I will see you soon.
Cya later Skittle Skater 💫
Been absent for a while… School has been hectic. I have two exams this week, then four the week after. I have had to do so much prep that it is starting to drive me insane. Yesterday, I just had to get out of the house so I went on a walk. I ended up at the lake a couple of kilometers from my house. It is where I tend to end up so it has, by default, become my ‘thinking place’. It is a beautiful place, so I will post a picture with this entry. For me, it is the perfect place just to think and calm down. To take a step back and appreciate the things we take for granted.
If you have read my previous posts, then you would be aware that I listen to a lot of Kpop music. Yep, still doing that. A few weeks ago, my Dad asked why I listened to it when I didn’t know what they were saying. I replied with I have no idea what half the songs on the radio are saying so what is the difference? For me, ‘I Need U’ by BTS is the perfect song for when I am thinking about what the hell I am doing with my life. Whenever I listen to it, the MV is running through my head, and it causes me to think if I am content with my life. It was a song that was played while I was sitting at the lake.
I am sorry to myself that I let it get to two and a half months between posts. I struggle to hold a hobby for more than a few weeks and this is one of them. I will try to be more consistent and to just write rather than post for just the sake of it. I will rambling and possibly at times not make a whole lot of sense, but I will continue to write. I don’t really mind if no one reads or takes in anything I say because this is for me rather than them. My goal in life is to learn and teach so anyone that comes along for the ride is welcome to join.
Probably should stop procrastinating now and get back to studying.
I hope you are having a wonderful day.
Cya later Skittle Skater 💫
16, eh? This is the first time that a birthday has actually changed me or made me feel older. In the 4 days since my birthday, I have got my L’s. It was at this moment that I noticed how fast my childhood was slipping away from me. I have always been more sensitive to most about these kind of things but this suprised me. I mean, driving a car is not something a child does. It is an adult activity; something kids dream about for their first 16 years.
Most teenagers don’t realise how lucky we have it. We don’t pay rent, we have a reliable routine, we are forced to see our friends everyday; our crushes everyday (unless you’re like me and picks someone who goes and moves 3 hours away from you), we have no real responsibilities. Sure, getting out of school and moving on to more exciting projects is fun and enjoyable, but is it all really that bad?
Now, I am not saying that I love school and want to stay there (as a student), or that I want to live with my parents forever. I am just saying that being a teenager is nice. To be young and healthy, and to afford to be a little careless is something that I wish I could experience forever. I hope that when I am an adult that I am able to connect with myself like I do at 16. I want to be able to remember my childhood and to recreate those feelings.
To be completely honest, I am scared about the next stage of my life. Even though I am what I want to do, executing it is the part that scares me. Everything is going to change. My friends are all planning to attend different universities, I will move out of home, I will get a job and have to solely depend on myself. The next 18 months are going to fly by so quickly that I’m not sure if I am going to be able to keep up.
Cya later Skittle Skater 💫
(I started rambling, sorry)