The Feeling of Success

“Desire is the key to motivation, but it’s determination and commitment to an unrelenting pursuit of your goal – commitment to excellence – that will enable you to attain the success you seek.” – Mario Andretti

I think this quote sums up my past two weeks. So, I had my Year 11 ATAR exams during the past two weeks and I have already gotten my results back. I passed all of them! I did not think I had, especially my Japanese but as it turns out, all of my hard work has paid off.

I believe that if you want something badly enough that you will do everything in your ability to achieve it. A good example of this is my exams. I have never been good at exams, with me failing a couple last year. One of my goals for this year was to improve my study techniques and exam-taking skills. From Day 1, I have been putting in about 4 hours a night on school nights, and 6-8 hours on the weekend into my study. This was a huge jump for me as I was previously doing 1 hour a night and a couple on the weekend. I think that by passing all of my exams, and passing all of my classes (surprisingly) that I am doing the right thing for me. I needed the will to actually sit down and do the work, and I think that I now have it.

I have a lot of goals for this year and am on my way to achieving them. I believe that having goals are important because they give you the motivation to live life and to make use of your day. Hopefully, I can achieve as many possible before the year is up so that this year would actually mean something. I am so close to finishing my crochet blanket, understanding the content that I am supposed to in Japanese, and I am doing well in my classes. So far, this year is going the way I wanted.

I hope that everyone is where they want to be at almost half-way in the year and is happy with it. Good luck with your goals and the motivation to achieve them.

See ya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

Rambling: Time Zones, Exams, K-POP

Good morning, good afternoon, good night.

I find time zones fascinating and annoying at the same time. One of my best friends lives in the USA and I am in Australia, so when I am available to talk, he is heading to bed. It is quite frustrating.

I actually have no idea where this post is headed. I had my first of 6 Year 11 ATAR exams today and my brain is fried. It was English so I literally just had to write for 3 hours straight. I think (well, my accurately, hope) that I did okay. We will find out in a couple of weeks. I have Don’t Wanna Cry by SEVENTEEN on in the background so I am not really thinking about my exam that I have tomorrow.

For me the first exam is always the worst. I panic and freak out because I don’t really know what to expect. I think I will be a bit more composed tomorrow morning than I was today. The good think about these exams is that I get a lot of time off school. I had all of yesterday, this afternoon, the rest of the day after the morning exam, and two days next week. So really, I will only have one proper day of school in two weeks. It is reasonable compensation for having to sit through 6 3-hour long exams.

On to other news, BTS’s MV for “Not Today” has surpassed 100 Million views! Congrats! Next job is “Spring Day”. As I enjoy both songs, this is welcome news to my ears. And has anyone listened/watched ASTRO’s new song “Baby”? I love it! I am also anticipating Pentagon’s comeback in a few days. So much new music to listen to.

So, I think I am going to stop now while I can. This post had no real theme. I guess that is what happens when you just click ‘write’.

I will see you soon.

Cya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

 

Back from Hiatus

Been absent for a while… School has been hectic. I have two exams this week, then four the week after. I have had to do so much prep that it is starting to drive me insane. Yesterday, I just had to get out of the house so I went on a walk. I ended up at the lake a couple of kilometers from my house. It is where I tend to end up so it has, by default, become my ‘thinking place’. It is a beautiful place, so I will post a picture with this entry. For me, it is the perfect place just to think and calm down. To take a step back and appreciate the things we take for granted.

If you have read my previous posts, then you would be aware that I listen to a lot of Kpop music. Yep, still doing that. A few weeks ago, my Dad asked why I listened to it when I didn’t know what they were saying. I replied with I have no idea what half the songs on the radio are saying so what is the difference? For me, ‘I Need U’ by BTS is the perfect song for when I am thinking about what the hell I am doing with my life. Whenever I listen to it, the MV is running through my head, and it causes me to think if I am content with my life. It was a song that was played while I was sitting at the lake.

I am sorry to myself that I let it get to two and a half months between posts. I struggle to hold a hobby for more than a few weeks and this is one of them. I will try to be more consistent and to just write rather than post for just the sake of it. I will rambling and possibly at times not make a whole lot of sense, but I will continue to write. I don’t really mind if no one reads or takes in anything I say because this is for me rather than them. My goal in life is to learn and teach so anyone that comes along for the ride is welcome to join.

Probably should stop procrastinating now and get back to studying.

I hope you are having a wonderful day.

Cya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

Liam’s Little Angel

Just a little post about a little someone called Liam Payne. 

If you have been following my blog, you would have seen my love for K-Pop, but before that there was One Direction. Since their hit song What Makes You Beautiful, I have been a loyal supporter, my favourite being Liam. 

Over night it was announced that Liam and his girlfriend, Cheryl, had had a beautiful baby boy. Here is the weird part (good weird): he was born on the 22 March, otherwise known as my birthday. My brother already shares a birthday with Liam himself (Aug 29), so for me to share a birthday with his son is pretty amazing to me. 

Congrats to Liam and Cheryl! 

Just felt like sharing this 😁

Cya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

Forever Young

16, eh? This is the first time that a birthday has actually changed me or made me feel older. In the 4 days since my birthday, I have got my L’s. It was at this moment that I noticed how fast my childhood was slipping away from me. I have always been more sensitive to most about these kind of things but this suprised me. I mean, driving a car is not something a child does. It is an adult activity; something kids dream about for their first 16 years.

Most teenagers don’t realise how lucky we have it. We don’t pay rent, we have a reliable routine, we are forced to see our friends everyday; our crushes everyday (unless you’re like me and picks someone who goes and moves 3 hours away from you), we have no real responsibilities. Sure, getting out of school and moving on to more exciting projects is fun and enjoyable, but is it all really that bad? 

Now, I am not saying that I love school and want to stay there (as a student), or that I want to live with my parents forever. I am just saying that being a teenager is nice. To be young and healthy, and to afford to be a little careless is something that I wish I could experience forever. I hope that when I am an adult that I am able to connect with myself like I do at 16. I want to be able to remember my childhood and to recreate those feelings.

 To be completely honest, I am scared about the next stage of my life. Even though I am what I want to do, executing it is the part that scares me. Everything is going to change. My friends are all planning to attend different universities, I will move out of home, I will get a job and have to solely depend on myself. The next 18 months are going to fly by so quickly that I’m not sure if I am going to be able to keep up. 

Cya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

(I started rambling, sorry) 

Stupid Emotions

I was in a reasonable mood last night. This morning… not so much. You know how when something happens and your mood just flips? Or when one person just seems to have this effect on you that you can’t control? I hate it, but I can’t help it. I don’t know whether it is feelings or lust or just attachment. It always happens just when I have gotten used to the fact that things are done and I have moved past it. Why can’t things just stay in the past?

Cya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

Ps. Sorry for the length

Intro Into My Life

Hey, everyone. So it has been 3 days since I last checked in and not much really has happened. I went to school, came home and did homework till I was told to go to bed, and then read for the following 2-3 hours. Pretty boring, really. In Western Australia, we had our state election, with our premier of 8 and a half years getting kicked out to the opposing party. Autumn kicked in (not that Summer ever really was here) and it has been raining for the past few days, on and off. Walking home today, I got splashed by a car driving into a puddle. My friend had got out of the danger zone and ‘forgot’ to warn me. Now, I have never gotten splashed before, having only seen it happen in movies and TV shows, so it was unexpected. (Just wanted to mention how good ‘Stay With Me’ by Chanyeol and Punch is!)

Matilda

Next week is pretty exciting, though. Next Wednesday, it will be my 16th birthday. I feel so old, knowing that I can get my L-plates, am legally old enough to have sex, and am 2 years away for my 18th. For the day, my parents are pulling me out of school (for the first time) and am taking me to see a production of Matilda, originally written by Roald Dahl. I am so excited because Matilda is my book. Today, I found out some unsettling news. Apparently the Literature class is going on an excursion to see it on the same day, same time, as me. Now, I have some interesting relationships with a couple members of the Lit class. An example is an on/off friendship with this guy who I have know since Year 5. I just have to find a way to avoid the entire class, who will luckily (for me) be pretty noticeable in their school uniforms. They get to go backstage, though. Not too happy about that. Also on my birthday, the school has planned a free dress day. Not a themed dress day, but a FREE dress day. They seriously had to pick the one day, the one birthday, that I am not attending.

Cya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

The Necessity of a BreakΒ 


One of my favourite things to do is to lie underneath the stars. Some people do mediation while others have a 10k run; I look up at the stars and think. Sometimes I have music, like tonight, other nights I don’t. It makes me realise and appreciate how lucky I am. It is also just nice to take a step back from the stress of work, work, work 24/7. If I can’t sleep, I will often quietly come outside and it helps to clear my mind. It is so easy to get caught up on the freeway of life that sometimes a break is needed. I enjoy star gazing because it makes me realise how small we are in comparison to the universe. I also like just listening to nature; like humanity just fades away. 

My teachers at school are pushing the idea of a 5 minute meditation during class. Now this doesn’t really work for me because it just encourages me to sleep, but it works for a lot of people. I think it is beneficial in life to find out what calms your mind and clears stress. Whether that be listening to music, thinking, running, or just sitting still for 5 minutes, I think that it makes a huge difference in your personality and your attitude. I know the difference that star gazing as had on me. I appreciate the little rewards and gifts that life grants us, and the need for understanding yourself. 
Cya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

Struggling Through Procrastination

School has finished and I am patiently waiting for my friend to finish her audition for the upcoming school production so we can walk home. I am sort of dreading going home because I have an English essay to finish for tomorrow. I will let you in on a secret… I have barely started. I know, I know. ‘Why are you doing this instead?’, ‘Get to work, lazy butt!’ I swear I have tried to work on it but it is just so boring. I have this amazing ability to find a way around everything. It takes a certain skill set but it is easy to achieve with practice.

Procrastination has become easier over the years with the creation of the internet, making special mention to YouTube and Spotify. As I am writing this, I have Lotto by EXO playing in my ears, and I am trying to resist the urge to dance. As I can’t dance and am still at school with the teachers walking around me, it would be quite embarrassing. And on comes MAMA the EXO-K version. Love this song… ANYWAY, as I was saying it is easier to become distracted nowadays.

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So it is now a few hours later and while I have made progress on my English essay, I still can’t be bothered to do it. I mean, it apparently has to be 1000 words and I am going to struggle to get to 700. Has anyone read The Boat by Nam Le? I preferred Tomorrow When the War Began by John Marsden from last year. Oh well, it will be over soon. My essay on the other hand…. even Ailee can’t encourage me today. Tomorrow morning will be quite stressful, I reckon. I don’t recommend to anyone to leave an essay to the last minute, even if it is dead boring and you would rather light yourself on fire than think about it. It is a bad habit that I wish to change, but English just isn’t helping.

I have put up the link to a lovely little video that will help in your procrastination process.

Cya later Skittle Skater πŸ’«

MAMA by EXO-K