16, eh? This is the first time that a birthday has actually changed me or made me feel older. In the 4 days since my birthday, I have got my L’s. It was at this moment that I noticed how fast my childhood was slipping away from me. I have always been more sensitive to most about these kind of things but this suprised me. I mean, driving a car is not something a child does. It is an adult activity; something kids dream about for their first 16 years.
Most teenagers don’t realise how lucky we have it. We don’t pay rent, we have a reliable routine, we are forced to see our friends everyday; our crushes everyday (unless you’re like me and picks someone who goes and moves 3 hours away from you), we have no real responsibilities. Sure, getting out of school and moving on to more exciting projects is fun and enjoyable, but is it all really that bad?
Now, I am not saying that I love school and want to stay there (as a student), or that I want to live with my parents forever. I am just saying that being a teenager is nice. To be young and healthy, and to afford to be a little careless is something that I wish I could experience forever. I hope that when I am an adult that I am able to connect with myself like I do at 16. I want to be able to remember my childhood and to recreate those feelings.
To be completely honest, I am scared about the next stage of my life. Even though I am what I want to do, executing it is the part that scares me. Everything is going to change. My friends are all planning to attend different universities, I will move out of home, I will get a job and have to solely depend on myself. The next 18 months are going to fly by so quickly that I’m not sure if I am going to be able to keep up.
Cya later Skittle Skater 💫
(I started rambling, sorry)